Sensory Overload

I just got done with my neuro feedback session and it was the 2nd time she mentioned sensory regulation. This time the bell rang louder and something clicked inside of me. It makes sense now. The odd feeling that I was different- am different.

Our bodies are amazing, I self cooed and didn't even realize what I was doing. I'm sad to say I wasn't kind to myself at all. It was almost like my body did everything it could to win my affections but nothing was ever good enough. I wasn't perfect enough, smart enough, fast enough and the list goes on.

Now I know how my body feels. The hurt, neglect and rejection. I treated my body the way my parents treated me, and I groveled and cried for my parents the way my body does for me. I'm so sorry.